Listening to the Voice of Truth – Part 3
When the first severe panic attack set in, my first thought was that this was the end. I’m either dying from a heart attack, or I’m losing my mind. It felt like a combination of both. This surely is what hell feels like, complete confusion and a feeling of total separation from God. “Why has He left me? I must have done something terrible to deserve this? How will I continue to homeschool with this? Why did He call us to adopt?” were just a few of the questions racing through my overloaded and confused mind. But the biggest question…”Will I ever be the same again?” taunted my every moment.
Then, as always, I turned to my “life situations” again for blame, you know the ones we “didn’t” talk about in the last blog. “This surely wasn’t my fault, I’ve just been given too much for one person to handle,” I complained. But something slowly was beginning to become obvious to me…perhaps, just perhaps, the problem lies within me. Groundbreaking thought. So, instead of praying my usual prayer asking God to help me with my problems, I fell upon my knees, with chains still attached and I prayed a life-changing prayer, “Lord, please grant me Your wisdom, and open my eyes to see the Truth.”
The first thing He taught me…”No, you will never be the same again Melissa, you will be BETTER.”
Stay Tuned…
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